That's really all I have to say. Went to the gymnastics gym today and it was the best thing I've done since I got back, seriously. Love love love love I'm in loooooove. I'm going 4 times a week and I'm gonna be a gymnast again. I'm determined.
I'm gonna be in so much pain tomorrow. It was totally worth it. =)
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Good But Edgy
So I could write right now about all of the great things that I love about Alpha Chi and how much I love living in the house and my sorority and all of these such things. Because I do. But tonight for some reason I'm just in an I'm annoyed kind of mood. So I'm going to rant.
People are bothering me. I don't know why this kind of thing upsets me so much (because it's none of my business) but it seems to have been happening with lots of people I know recently and I just wanna scream. Pet peeve: when girls (or guys I guess) have someone that is really crushing on them and making it totally awkward and creepy and it's really unwanted...and these girls don't do anything about it! Instead, they egg it on. Like Laela with Marcia - seriously it's not that hard to get rid of a girl. I mean, just don't lead someone on when they're being so forward and like "OMG I'm in love with you I always will be blah blah blah." And if that's not okay, SAY SOMETHING!!!
Like tonight, Amanda has this kinda weird guy Scott who really really likes her and broke up with his girlfriend for her and calls her non stop and is all girly and needy and annoying. And they started out as friends but now it's too far. Side note Amanda has a boyfriend and this sort of thing happens. But INSTEAD of saying "I'm sorry, I enjoy spending time with you as a friend, but it makes me really uncomfortable when you say things like that, and I'm not ever going to break up with Joey for anyone so stop trying to get in the way of our relationship. Thanks bye" she just like encourages it! For instance, being all flashy and dancing right in front of him, ya know, things you would do if you were flirting with a guy. She loves the attention! If I was Joey I would be so miserable all the time! UGH. I mean maybe it's not that simple, and I'm sure I guess I'm guilty of it sometimes too, but it just bothers me so much and this always happens with her and I just want to be like STOP! Same used to be with Laela. I dunno, I guess it's just a huge pet peeve of mine. And why I'm in kinda a bad mood tonight.
And there's just been so much pre recruitment and no more single room so I don't really have any time to myself and I can be my fair share of introverted and I haven't had a chance to do my own thing at all this week, and I really need to sometimes. I'm looking forward to class and socializing with friends from other houses and outside of the sorority. AKA I really miss Jillian! Boo. I think I'm just in a sad mood tonight. Thank god tomorrow is the last day of pre recruitment for now. I want my life back.
Hope you enjoyed my rant.
People are bothering me. I don't know why this kind of thing upsets me so much (because it's none of my business) but it seems to have been happening with lots of people I know recently and I just wanna scream. Pet peeve: when girls (or guys I guess) have someone that is really crushing on them and making it totally awkward and creepy and it's really unwanted...and these girls don't do anything about it! Instead, they egg it on. Like Laela with Marcia - seriously it's not that hard to get rid of a girl. I mean, just don't lead someone on when they're being so forward and like "OMG I'm in love with you I always will be blah blah blah." And if that's not okay, SAY SOMETHING!!!
Like tonight, Amanda has this kinda weird guy Scott who really really likes her and broke up with his girlfriend for her and calls her non stop and is all girly and needy and annoying. And they started out as friends but now it's too far. Side note Amanda has a boyfriend and this sort of thing happens. But INSTEAD of saying "I'm sorry, I enjoy spending time with you as a friend, but it makes me really uncomfortable when you say things like that, and I'm not ever going to break up with Joey for anyone so stop trying to get in the way of our relationship. Thanks bye" she just like encourages it! For instance, being all flashy and dancing right in front of him, ya know, things you would do if you were flirting with a guy. She loves the attention! If I was Joey I would be so miserable all the time! UGH. I mean maybe it's not that simple, and I'm sure I guess I'm guilty of it sometimes too, but it just bothers me so much and this always happens with her and I just want to be like STOP! Same used to be with Laela. I dunno, I guess it's just a huge pet peeve of mine. And why I'm in kinda a bad mood tonight.
And there's just been so much pre recruitment and no more single room so I don't really have any time to myself and I can be my fair share of introverted and I haven't had a chance to do my own thing at all this week, and I really need to sometimes. I'm looking forward to class and socializing with friends from other houses and outside of the sorority. AKA I really miss Jillian! Boo. I think I'm just in a sad mood tonight. Thank god tomorrow is the last day of pre recruitment for now. I want my life back.
Hope you enjoyed my rant.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Summer 08 (AKA Reasons I'm Happy to be Done with Riannon)
Wow. Can you believe summer’s over? I certainly can’t. Where did the time go? I know I feel this way every year, but it never fails to amaze me. I’m never ready for it to end.
I was thinking back to the beginning of summer last night, and it’s amazing how things have changed. I almost forgot how depressed I was during those first weeks…thank god Kirsten finally came home! I love thinking about how much I’ve changed just in one summer. I stopped dealing with people’s bull shit, and I definitely stopped caring when dumb people got mad at me. Not to name names, but I’m so happy to not be friends with Dani anymore! I like living drama-free (which also kinda means staying away from Laela’s circle for the most part and that doesn’t bother me).
I like comparing this summer to last summer, especially because it makes me feel so good about this summer. This summer I spent a lot more time with the gym girls and Kirsten, and even though we had more drama than usual, at least I wasn’t ditching them for Riannon. I know we’re all getting busier with our lives outside of our little group, but I’m glad that our friendships are still holding up. It’ll be really interesting to see how the dynamics change now that all of us our in college. I hope Gracie and Lexa grow up a little bit and stop being so immature. I also hope that they stop being so clique-y that and Lex stops bringing other people down with her. But that will all remain to be seen.
Also different this summer I reconnected with Alexis and Cindy. I can finally be myself around them and not take all of their jokes personally like I used to. Hanging out with them is fun, and I’m much much happier that I’m friends with them again. Another reason to be thankful that Riannon is out of the picture, considering that was basically her fault. Unlike last summer, this time around I feel like I got to see everyone that I wanted to because I actually had time to.
Another reason that not being with Riannon made my summer SO much better – my parents. This was the first year that I actually cried for my parents the most when I got to the airport. My mom has finally become one of my friends now that I’m not sneaking around all the time, spending all of my time with Riannon and not coming home til the early hours of the morning. I think that’s my favorite part of this summer. I really can’t wait for my parents to come visit in October.
And finally, there’s Amy. I’m still kinda amazed at how different things are between us compared to Riannon. I know it must be annoying to her at least to keep comparing things, but I’ve just regretted everything with Riannon so much, so it makes me feel really good to realize that there are girls out there who can be complete opposites from her. Amy doesn’t have any drama, she actually cares for me instead of having all of her own issues, she has goals and passions and is doing everything she can to follow them and make them come true, she’s close with her parents, she has amazing friends and multiple good jobs, and most of all she treats me well. I’ve come a long way with this whole “she’s not my type” thing. I’ve learned that a person can be your type even if they don’t look like someone that you would normally be attracted to. I also can’t believe how much we’re like the stereotypical lesbians now, but oh well. I know I’m gonna miss her like crazy, and it’s gonna be hard to be at school, but I trust her to be strong enough for both of us, and if she’s not worried then I’m not worried (or I’ll try not to be). Already I feel better about things than I did with Riannon, and that’s definitely a good sign.
I accomplished a lot this summer, and even though I’m so so so sad to see summer end and to leave my home and friends and family, I think it was still near perfect and I wouldn’t really change anything. So long, summer 08 – you’ve been good to me =)
I was thinking back to the beginning of summer last night, and it’s amazing how things have changed. I almost forgot how depressed I was during those first weeks…thank god Kirsten finally came home! I love thinking about how much I’ve changed just in one summer. I stopped dealing with people’s bull shit, and I definitely stopped caring when dumb people got mad at me. Not to name names, but I’m so happy to not be friends with Dani anymore! I like living drama-free (which also kinda means staying away from Laela’s circle for the most part and that doesn’t bother me).
I like comparing this summer to last summer, especially because it makes me feel so good about this summer. This summer I spent a lot more time with the gym girls and Kirsten, and even though we had more drama than usual, at least I wasn’t ditching them for Riannon. I know we’re all getting busier with our lives outside of our little group, but I’m glad that our friendships are still holding up. It’ll be really interesting to see how the dynamics change now that all of us our in college. I hope Gracie and Lexa grow up a little bit and stop being so immature. I also hope that they stop being so clique-y that and Lex stops bringing other people down with her. But that will all remain to be seen.
Also different this summer I reconnected with Alexis and Cindy. I can finally be myself around them and not take all of their jokes personally like I used to. Hanging out with them is fun, and I’m much much happier that I’m friends with them again. Another reason to be thankful that Riannon is out of the picture, considering that was basically her fault. Unlike last summer, this time around I feel like I got to see everyone that I wanted to because I actually had time to.
Another reason that not being with Riannon made my summer SO much better – my parents. This was the first year that I actually cried for my parents the most when I got to the airport. My mom has finally become one of my friends now that I’m not sneaking around all the time, spending all of my time with Riannon and not coming home til the early hours of the morning. I think that’s my favorite part of this summer. I really can’t wait for my parents to come visit in October.
And finally, there’s Amy. I’m still kinda amazed at how different things are between us compared to Riannon. I know it must be annoying to her at least to keep comparing things, but I’ve just regretted everything with Riannon so much, so it makes me feel really good to realize that there are girls out there who can be complete opposites from her. Amy doesn’t have any drama, she actually cares for me instead of having all of her own issues, she has goals and passions and is doing everything she can to follow them and make them come true, she’s close with her parents, she has amazing friends and multiple good jobs, and most of all she treats me well. I’ve come a long way with this whole “she’s not my type” thing. I’ve learned that a person can be your type even if they don’t look like someone that you would normally be attracted to. I also can’t believe how much we’re like the stereotypical lesbians now, but oh well. I know I’m gonna miss her like crazy, and it’s gonna be hard to be at school, but I trust her to be strong enough for both of us, and if she’s not worried then I’m not worried (or I’ll try not to be). Already I feel better about things than I did with Riannon, and that’s definitely a good sign.
I accomplished a lot this summer, and even though I’m so so so sad to see summer end and to leave my home and friends and family, I think it was still near perfect and I wouldn’t really change anything. So long, summer 08 – you’ve been good to me =)
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