It's Been Awhile

I can't believe how fast summer is going. Or I guess I should say has gone, now that there are only 3 weeks left of it. It's weird thinking back on the beginning of the summer and how things have already changed so much for me since then. Sometimes I feel like I lose my sanity a little bit, being home for long periods of time. It's easy to lose myself I guess when I have to keep showing everyone around me that I'm different than I was in high school. Which is good, just a little tiring I guess.

I have to say though, O.A.R. concert last night was freaking amazing. I am so in love with them. Pretty much the best concert all summer. I just love how chill and happy their songs are, and how much fun it is to be in the crowd rockin out with all of my friends. I definitely am going to make sure that I'm home next summer for their concert again. I guess the gym girl beach trip and the O.A.R. concert are the two steady events each summer. I like it that way. I still kind of wish both would have lasted forever...

I'm starting to get all weird feeling now that summer's almost over. Leaving people makes me sappy. Friends are hard, even though I know they'll still be there when I get back. And somehow, I always manage to get attached to somebody, no matter how hard I try not to. I know it'll be easier once I'm back at school with recruitment and moving into the house and everything to keep my mind occupied (and I'm definitely sooo excited to get back to all of that), but thinking about it right now kinda sucks. It always does - but I'm trying to go with that whole carefree if it's meant to be it'll happen kinda attitude. At least that way I don't have any responsibility in the whole matter. Lame I know, but whatever.

This one is random, but my mom and I have been getting along SO WELL recently. It really makes me so very happy, especially compared to last summer. I guess I am home a lot more often and not always sneaking around with Riannon...I don't think my parents liked her very much even though they never really told me that. I'm working on finding one that they'll approve of. For after I get back from Africa, of course. But anyway, aside from not always telling my mom exactly where I'm going (but that's mostly because she would freak out about gas prices lol), I can talk to her about just about anything these days. Which rocks.

My dad's another story I guess, but I'm trying to work on that one. I just don't want to have regrets about our relationship, and I hate feeling like time is running out. But that's a topic for another day.

I'm tired. Sleep time!

A Birthday to End All Birthdays

So you were definitely wrong Julia. Life feels COMPLETELY different now that I'm 21. It's like there was this whole area of life that I didn't have access to and now I can go anywhere! Well, at least it feels that way. But anyway, to recap:

Basically, it was the most perfect birthday I have ever had. Started out with a wonderful and delicious birthday brunch on my deck with my parents. My dad made chocolate chip pancakes and my mom made fruit salad and we used to fancy dishes and my mom got me balloons and I got to open my presents from them. I got a new ipod! Finally...I mean it has been 4+ years since I got my other one. Here's what the brunch looked like:

After brunch, Gracie came over and we floated in the baby pool for a little bit. I'm working so hard on my tan (I mean freckles...)! Then I jetted over to get my haircut. I finally decided to get rid of the long hair and go with a shorter look, and I loooooove what Heather did with it. New haircuts like this make me happy! After my haircut, I continued the pampering with a pedicure =) The day was just so relaxing it was awesome.

Once I was all pampered and pretty, Kir came over and we went to the ABC store. Buying alcohol is SO EXCITING! Seriously, like a whole new world was opened up. Okay, I swear I'm not an alcoholic, it was just really exciting. When I brought my Bacardi Peach Red rum home I showed my dad, and he insisted that we all make drinks haha. So my first drink as an official 21 year-old was bacardi and orange juice with my dad and Kirsten. That's definitely memorable haha. And strange. Strange and memorable.

When everyone finalllly was ready we all went out to dinner at Mango Mike's. Nothing too spectacular - Kait and I ordered yummy mango margaritas and I got a giant beach hat that I got to keep!

And finally: the bars! Well, we only made it to Tom Tom's, but here's why. Kait, Lae and I were the only ones with IDs, and we were just kind of hoping and praying that Jillian and Kir would be able to get into the bars somehow. So after Laela harrased her neighbors (that she had just met) to try and let us borrow their IDs (her idea, not mine haha), we decided that the three of us would just go into the bar and see how easy it was to get in. Even though they definitely checked our IDs, it was still relatively easy because the bouncer looked at Lae's ID and was like "this isn't you" and she was like "no it's not" and he was just like "okay, whatever, go in." So that part was pretty easy. Oh and when the bouncer looked at my ID he told me to go up the stairs to the bar in the back and find a guy named "Whiskey" and tell him that Paul sent me. Which we promptly did, and all three of us got free shots! First free drink of the night haha.

Meanwhile, outside Kir and Jillian were trying to find a way to get in. First Jillian tried to use the ID that Laela had already used. Mind you, Jillian is very white, and Laela's ID (like Laela) is very Middle Eastern. Looked NOTHING LIKE Jillian. The bouncer looked at it and asked for Jillian's address, and she told him that she had moved and had a new address. And then he asked for her dad's name and she was like "I don't know my birth father, I'm adopted!" Clearly, that plan did not work haha. So they went back over to the steps to think of another plan. At which point the owner's son came out and told them that if they waited a little bit, he would sneak them around the back way and get them in. After like 20 minutes he took them around the back stairs, past all of the boxes and boxes of vodka, and up the stairs into the bar! So SOMEHOW everyone managed to get in and it was AMAZING!!

To quickly sum up the rest of the night at the bar, I got a million free drinks because it was my birthday (thanks to the birthday tiara and sash), ran into Zack's older brother by some weird strange coincidence, and met a bunch of Africans that all tried to make out with us. It was so much fun though, and we all got to dance and drink and be merry! We stayed at the bar til closing, and drunkenly found our way back to Laela's house, and of course passed out Laela didn't answer her phone and we had to figure out someway to get inside (which included me announcing that I knew the password for her garage...yeah, I just made that up, I have no clue why I thought I would know the password haha). Finally her mom answered Laela's phone and let us in, which apparently I couldn't stop talking about afterwards...I mean, I feel like that would have been pretty awkward. But anyway, somehow we managed to all fall into Laela's bed, where we preceded to drunk dial everyone in our phonebooks. After much biting on my part (I'm not really sure why), we finally all passed out. Aaaaand when I woke up, I was still drunk!

Wow, that was a long story. But I just had to share how amazing the day was. Truly the best birthday I've ever had. And I think now I've finally detoxed from the shit ton of alchy I drank. Who's up for round two?!

<3

What Else is There to Do

While sitting at work of course. I know soon we'll be starting fun new projects that I'm actually excited about, such as Resolve U (the college campaign), but for now, I have been checking my facebook and e-mail for the past hour. So I decided to write a blog. What a good time, right?

So I'm trying not to get back into my funk again. I don't know why all of the sudden today I feel like I am. Maybe it's all the stress of trying to organize thursday and make sure everyone has an ID (which I'm not sure is gonna happen) cause I want all of my friends there! Then I'm also worried that the places we go are gonna be lame and not fun or something, or that no one's gonna show up. I dunno, it's just stressful. I'm sure once the day is actually here though it'll be a lot of fun.

I guess I'm also just kinda confused about thoughts bouncing around in my head. This morning on my walk to work (an excellent time for thinking), I realized that probably my biggest regret from dating Riannon is allowing it to ruin my friendship with Zack. I wonder if I had actually listened to him at the beginning of last summer when he told me I shouldn't be dating her if we would still be friends. I still can't believe that everything that he told me was right and I just didn't want to hear it. Now I don't know if we'll be friends like we used to be. But hanging out with him recently made me realize how much I miss him as my best guy friend...cause obviously no one has filled that spot since him. Maybe I should just apologize. I just don't know if it's too late now. This probably has a lot to do with my weird mood.

Also my weight is stressing me out. Like it always does. I know it's stupid, I just can't stop thinking about it and freaking out. It's so annoying how a little number can put me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. This actually has the most to do with my weird mood, I'm sure of it.

Wow, I didn't mean to sit here and complain for like an hour. Now I feel like I have to write about something good. Well this morning I took care of my neighbor's cats for the last time until August. Even though I love the one, I'm happy not to have to wake up extra early anymore! Ummm, I'm almost done with my first econ class, that's pretty exciting. And the beach is in a week and a half, that's SUPER exciting!! Yayyy =)

Okay, I hope that turned around the depressing mood of my post. Oh, and...2 days! Just, ya know, in case you were wondering.